My Tanya and Aurelina went home today...My sweetie cried this time, it was a first. We always seem to prepare her for leaving and she is always excited to go see her Daddy and her home and kitties. But this time she cried a little. This was an emotional visit. She has been very brave. Death and loss is tough for adults, imagine a 3 year old. I was amazed how well she handled everything.Tanya is a wonderful mommy and protected her as best she could. Both Tanya and Aurelina comforted me so much, I adore all my girls. This picture is of me, Tanya and Nana , needless to say we were all much younger....Tanya was less than a year old in this picture.
Which makes me ten...and thin!

So as she left the tears began and have not stopped. I am so sad. In losing my nana I lost the best person I have ever known. My Nana is a gem...she was one of those people that make you have hope in a world full of negativity. Her glass was always overflowing...not just half full. She was an eternal optimist. I never heard her say a negative word about anyone. Plenty entered her life that deserved a few negative words. Her three husbands all had problems ;from alcohol to abuse and womanizing. But she saw the best in them.She recognized the best in everything.To rub shoulders with her made me a better person.To be related was a blessing.Her smile would light up the darkest of rooms. She was sunshine on rainy days and the rainbow after and during many storms.To look into her eyes was to see Jesus. I feel guilty as I sit here and wish she was still on this earth...because I know she is in glory and would never want to return. Heaven is the place we all want to see, we yearn for it. She is now walking without pain;breathing without an oxygen tank.Laughing and leaping. Singing without any shortness of breath. Hugging her Ma and Pa, greeting my Dad.Reuniting with all her many friends that went on before her.She is happier than ever before.
I am happy for her..but sad for this world. We lost a great one.
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